I saw a psychologist this morning that specializes in panic disorder, and guess what? turns out it's treatable, so we're going to conquer the panic together this year. The thought of living in a different way, without the panic, is almost something I can't imagine, because I can't remember a time when I lived without it. I've lived with panic disorder for over twenty years, and am only now finding help, but you know what, it's never too late! For the first time in my life, I feel hopeful. I found someone who helped me believe for the first time that I can beat this, that it's treatable. Can't tell you what that means to me. The thought of my kids remembering me differently from the person I am today is what will keep me going this year as one by one I face those old demons that have plagued me for so long. I guess I just got desperate, and I'm needing something more . . . there's something else I'm searching for . . . and I still haven't found what I'm looking for, but I think I'm heading in the right (or at least a better) direction.
From "Shallow"
Tell me somethin', girl
Are you happy in this modern world?
Or do you need more?
Is there somethin' else you're searchin' for?
I'm falling
In all the good times I find myself
Longin' for change
And in the bad times I fear myself
Written by: Andrew Wyatt, Anthony Rossomando, Mark Ronson, Stefani Germanotta
Karli lives in a small Oregon town with her three children, Australian husband, and cat Pepper. She loves coffee, Etsy, friends, community, nursing, zone 8 gardening, interior design, backyard chickens, and wine.
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