A Good Cry

Saturday, March 28, 2009
I knew it was coming, and the day finally arrived--I completely broke down this afternoon, sobbing out all the emotion I've been holding inside for the past two months. Driving to McMinnville to celebrate my Mom's 59th birthday two weeks late (her birthday was St. Patrick's Day), with the rain pounding on the windshield, I pulled the car over and cried like I haven't cried in a long time. Sam and Juniper sat quietly in the backseat, while the windows fogged over; there we stayed until I finally felt calm--something I haven't felt in awhile.

My crying was in part provoked by Landon's last-minute decision to stay home from my Mom's birthday dinner as he had another rough night last night and was completely exhausted to the point that when push came to shove, he just couldn't muster up enough energy to make the trip.

And so I lasted until Newberg, where I pulled over into one of those new subdivisions that's going up right along HWY 99, and the tears started flowing.

Sam had some questions about why I was crying, and I answered him as honestly as I could: "Mommy is crying because she wants Daddy to get better." He responded, "But Mommy, Daddy told me that he IS getting better." Landon had told me this, too, but somehow it helped to hear it reinforced by Samuel, my little four year old.

Sometimes, a good cry is just what you need.

Karli

3 comments:

MK said...

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Anonymous said...

Karli, I'm so sorry that you had to have a good cry while in your car at the side of the road! It's always at the most inoportune times, isn't it? (Happens to me in the shower sometimes.) And I know it's hard with the kids there, but good for you for LETTING IT OUT and for just being as honest as you could with Sam. You are a great mom and wife, but you are a woman first and your heart was telling you to take a moment for you. Better than being huddled in a bundle under someone's tree in their backyard! Breathe, breathe, breathe. --Stefanie

Claudia said...

I love you Karli Ann!!! Did you know that you are the only child named after me - or dad!!
I am sorry about all the stress you have been having to carry!!
Like you said, sometimes a really good cry makes everything seem so much lighter!!
And I totlally agree with you~~~oft times children can reforce to us what is really important in the end!!!!
I love you Honey, and i am so glad that you were able to come down....although except for the fact that we were waiting for Trac to come, I didn't like doing it two weeks late.

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